PFA

Much of my life has been a state of Perpetual Frantic Acheivement.

 

I don't know if it has been a depsperate bid for acceptance or a need to prove that I am still a useful member of society despite my unique condition.

 

I suspect that it is a little of both.

 

I was a geek in school, but I was an Alpha-Geek.  I was not truly a loner.  I was social - I was always the leader of some crowd.  I had a lot of friends, some enemies. In general, I got along with most people.

 

But there was always the need to acheive - to prove myself.  It was like saying 'See, transitioning isn't a way to hide.  I am not doing it because I couldn't handle what life threw at me.  Life I can handle.  The transition remains.'